We made it through a crazy June, packed full of things. The best and most important was Maggie's 4th birthday party. Every year I try to take the girls birthdays off so that we can be together on "their" day, but this year it was not possible. Because Maggie's birthday fell on a Wednesday there was no way I could get out of work. So we decided to tell her that her birthday was Saturday not Wednesday..I felt so guilty but she didn't catch on and was just as happy waiting a few more days.
Friday came around and we did our family gifts and Grandma Lyn came over for cake. Maggie got to pick whatever she wanted for dinner and she picked pizza...easy enough. Maggie LOVES her pineapple and ham pizza. Jonn stopped and got a small piece of cake from Safeway and they wrote her name on it, that was sweet.
Saturday was the big party, for friends and family. Maggie was SO excited. Mainly because her best friend Kayli was going to be there. They all played in the pool at Grandpa's house and we had hot dogs and a cake. Maggie had so much fun playing with her firends and her cousins. It is so fun to watch her grow and interact with her friends. I can't wait to see how much she grows this year.
We had our ups and downs this year. We tried preschool (that didnt' go over well), she is still very shy in large groups, she did find a great friend in Kayli and loves playing with just her. She comes out of her shell and really enjoys herself when Kayli is there. Maggie discovered her bed and goes to sleep in it every night. It is strange to have her not sleep through the night now. She loves to dress herslelf and do her own hair. Every morning she does it all by herself. She if very independant and doesn't want help with anything. And she gets very mad when she does need help.
It was a tough year for your family as a whole. We lost our sweet loving Grandma Jo and Grandpa Joe's health is failing. It was not the same without either of them at the party. I know they both would have been there if they could have. But I hope they both know that it's ok that they were not. I know they are both out there watching Maggie grow and kicking themselves for not being able to take part. I hope Maggie grows up knowing that her Grandparents...all of them...love her.
I love you my Maggie Jane. You are a strong willed, strong minded, funny little girl. A girl I am proud of daily and can not wait to see what the following year brings for you.
I love you my little 4 year old! Yes u are this many 1111!
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
My sensitive little girl
It's been a crazy few months, many ups and downs. Finally coming to the realization that Dad IS better off in a nursing home. He seems happy for the time being. Would still like to get him closer and into a good adult family home. But that is another story for another day.
Mom has been trying to get a house and that, in itself, has been a challenge. And again another story once its all settled. Three strikes and I thought we were out. But today it came up again. She needs to get a house that is her only way to get to the end product of getting Dad closer and to a good adult family home.
After seeing Mom get so excited and then have it all fall apart I was satisfied with the fact that she wouldn't be moving closer, wouldn't be getting more independance and wouldn't be getting herself closer to the prize.
Today I broke down, broke down to the words "they were wrong". How one group of people could ALL be wrong was crazy. I had just settle everything in my mind and in my heart and it all came rearing its ugly head AGAIN.
I had had enough and I had to walk away, in tears, heavy tears...the kind u have trouble breathing from. Little did I know that my youngest, Maggie (age 3.9) was right behing me. My place to cry is my bathroom, it's farthest way that no one can hear me. I sat down put my head in my hands and just let it out. Something I do very seldom, but seems to be happening more often lately. I looked up after a few minutes to Maggie standing a few feet away. She looked sad..no concerned. As I was looking at her she started walking towards me and put her arms around me and rested her head on top of my shoulder as I continued to cry.Nothing was said. She just held ME, a 3 year old held her adult mother in HER arms as I cried. My crazy, loud little Magpie was there right when I needed a shoulder to cry on. Little does she know that was the most special thing ANYONE has ever done. A simple gesture by a simple little girl made it all better.
One day u will know how u helped your Mama through a tough day. I love you Maggie Jane. Thank you for being there for me. I promise to pay you back one day.
Mom